It's official. We just got back from Children's Hospital today..I came back bit little dishearted. Up to this point, you know that we have been using his hearing aid for his left ear almost 2 months. It was vague whether he responds to it or not. Plus it's hard because he keep asking for the CI turn on while trying out the aid part. Anyway, it comfirmed our answer today, Cory is not responding to his aid at all. They confirmed it. They did hearing test with aid only...no responds unless it's REALLY loud, which you can feel the vibration in the room. LOL. I admitted I literally jumped out of my chair. I guess they forgot to warn me. So they tried the type that it vibrates in his ear to see if he understand the concept of listening and responding. He did well with that. You could see the confusion by his face expression because it was different than listening with CI. So basically, its done deal. They said he is a candiate for second one..and we need to make a decision soon. The sooner the better because he is young..and is really doing well with first and they (at that age) picks up on auditory really good to become successful. Again, that word "successful"..that is WHAT we want for our children. Am I so wrong to think that? I do know, we love our children unconditionally no matter what they do, its their life, their choice. But, doing this (getting a second one) is NOT their choice, its mine. You can see why I'm mixed up with this. I have to weight the pros and cons..and I really do feel strongly about it. Maybe it's politicial part? maybe it's feeling guilty? what if, what if not? oy!
To answer another mom's question..who did got me thinking...what if there is something better ten years from now? I did asked about that today...she said it can be upgraded, but cost pending ..yes. So I do feel better about that. Its like my hearing aids, I have to pay for them almost every 10 years...so it's basically the same thing. (ya..ouch, I know.)
I keep telling myself..if 10 years or 15 years later down the road, he doesn't want to use his CI (S) anymore. He can just easily take them off. (not the magnet part in his skull) but the equipment. That would be fine with me..that is his choice. I promise myself not to be disappointed or mad or whatever, just respect for who he is. Then I can tell myself, at least he has the both of options (signing and speaking) and we did our best for him. He can make the choice hisself.
It probably sounds like we are going ahead with it..up to this point. But I really hope for some more feedbacks and to hear from others about similar experiences.